AMERICAN + CHILEAN

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Growing up I always knew I was a halfsie (what I like to call people who are of mixed races). Obviously, I knew I was different because my mother was from Chile. I traveled to Chile while I was younger and was once fluent in Spanish as a little Morgan. Over time my trips to Chile and Spanish speaking faded. Round trip tickets for 5 to Chile was getting very expensive and as my siblings and I got older it was hard to leave for a long vacation to South America. There was a 12+ year gap where I didn’t visit Chile. During those 12+ years of no visits to Chile I was growing up...middle school, high school and into my college years. It was during those years I really knew nothing of what it meant to be Chilean. My memories of my Chilean family were very few (except for Grandma). I didn’t really know what the people were like...or the culture that made up half of who I was.

Siempre he sabido que soy una “halfsie” (como me gusta llamarme a mi y a los que somos una mezcla de razas y culturas). Siempre supe que era diferente, mi madre era de Chile, y cuando era pequeña solía ir bastante y hasta incluso hablaba un español perfecto. Con el tiempo, mi español y mis viajes a Chile se fueron volviendo cada vez mas escasos. Comprar tíquets para 5 ida y vuelta era cada vez mas complicado y poco a poco fue pasando el tiempo y termine dejando de ir. Durante doce años no fui ni supe lo que era realmente ser Chilena. Mis recuerdos cada vez se volvían menos nítidos y poco a poco olvide que significaba la cultura Chilena. 

photo: instagram.com/n.y.c.photography

photo: instagram.com/n.y.c.photography

September of 2012 changed it all. I went back to Chile for the first time in many years. After observing my Chilean family for a few hours at a family gathering it hit me. I immediately understood why I am the way I am. The reason why I love social functions, talking, dancing anywhere at anytime, large family functions, did I mention talking? Chileans love their gatherings and spending all day and night with their loved ones...and it’s one of my favorite parts about going there. Over my many trips to Chile in the last few years I’ve realized that my blood is more latina than gringa...sorry dad! Ever since that trip two years ago I have thrived learning about Chile and meeting and making new Chilean friends/contacts. I never had a great relationship with my extended family in the states so getting to know all my family in Chile has been a dream come true. After all these years of not knowing what it meant to have Chilean blood, I finally know. I now feel complete and proud. I am very lucky that I have two amazing cultures that make up who I am. Half American and half Chilean, the best of both worlds. More traditions, latin music and another language to embrace and love.

Pero en Septiembre de 2012 todo cambio. Volvi a Chile por primera vez en muchos años. Observe mucho a mi familia chilena hasta que de pronto entendí gran parte de por que soy como soy. La razón por la que me encantan los eventos sociales, hablar, bailar a toda hora y en todas partes, grandes reuniones familiares.. y ya mencione que me encanta hablar? A los Chilenos les encantan las reuniones, y pasar todo el día junto con sus seres queridos… y esa es una de mis partes favoritas cuando visito Chile. A través de toso mis últimos viajes a Chile me he dado cuenta que mi sangre es mas latina que gringa.. (lo siento papa) Desde ese momento en 2012 me he emocionado por conocer mas sobre mi cultura y mi gente. Me encanta tener saber mas y mas y conocer mientras mas Chilenos mejor. Nunca tuve la mejor relación con mi familia en Estados Unidos y por eso poder conocer a toda la chilena ha sido un verdadero sueño. Después de todos estos años sin saber lo que significaba tener Chilean, por fin lo se. Me siento completa y mas que nada orgullosa. Soy verdaderamente afortunada por tener dos grandes culturas que forman parte de mi. Mitad chilena, Mitad americana, lo mejor de los dos mundos. Es decir mas tradiciones, la música latina y otro idioma para querer y cuidar.  

Being featured in Cosmopolitan for Latinas this summer was a big moment for the Latina in me!!

I’m so proud to be an American…and Chilean!

YAPO!

 

Haber salido en Cosmopolitan para Latinas este verano fue uno de los momentos mas importantes para la Latina dentro de mi. 

Estoy tan orgullosa de ser americana… y chilena. 

YAPO!